im always getting in my own way.
Anonymous said: Hey Debbie, Its Pat Glennon I hope things are going OK. Its been a long time and I wonder how things are going for you often. Would love to catch up one of these days. My email is ptglennon@yahoo if you are interested.
HEY, DAMN!!!! HOW R U?LIFE IS GOOD.HAVE BEEN SOBER 3 YEARS NOW.LIVE IN SOUTHIE.MY OWN APARTMENT.NOT WORKING JUST WORKING ON “SELF”.WE GOTTA X-CHANGE NUMBERS.WHERE U AT NOW? ILL WRITE U AN EMAIL…..MY EMAIL IS LIBRAFAIRY4@YAHOO
I WOULD LOVE TO CHAT.
I’m in so much pain.why didnt i feel this years ago?
I’m hurting in southie.I miss my friend.I cry often,its healthy.hopefully i’ll heal and move on but damn this so fucking sux. and my neighbors a driving me right up the fucking wall.ignorant bastards,
the alcoholic problem as i know it.the drinking,drugging is just the top of the iceberg.Its just a symptom of the real issues lying underneath.
you dont know what you dont know.
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Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
by william ernest hanley
I’m gonna be ok.i think.It has been 7 years now since my existence was altered.2 years since I finally got sober.I say “finally” cause for years and years I couldnt stay sober.I did what all real alcoholics do & thats drink.I’ve habitually used drugs also but after the TBI,I didnt dabble with the drugs or more specifically”DOPE” any longer.I obviously dabbled with pot and a few other namless substances.But no more heroin only alcohol.I’ve come to understand that being an alcoholic or heroin addict is one and the same.a junkie is a junkie dont matter if its going up your arm or going down your throat.the effect is essentially the same. now I know the the solution is the same.because the same thing is happening.YOU ARE SPIRITUALLY DYING.It’s the first to go (your spiritual self)and the last to come back.so I’m working on the spiritual solution.I’m getting right with me.
I also need to start working with other alcoholics,maybe I need to join a group an open group.I need to meet people,I was to scared at first but I’m two years sober now and I isolate way too much.I go to meetings almost every day so i am around people i just dont involve myself very much.